A Dog as answer to prayer.

18 Mei 2021

Another answer to a prayer.... and so much more!

Last week, WOW!

I literally went from the pits of despair and depression, to joyfully blessed and busy.

My “potential future son-in-law” blessed us with his presence (and I have learned to treasure these Holy Moments now) when he and my daughter are in our house; and to have a man in the house again.

My husband are going to debate this (some day when we meet again in heaven), but this kid can braai!

Better than my husband, better than my Dad and brothers. It is something out of this world!

I grant my daughter this happiness, and I grant his parents the precious times with they’re son and my daughter, and I am so full of gratitude for his whole family receiving my daughter with so much love.

However, I am struggling to adapt to this new season with my daughter on her way leaving the nest.

And I prayed again:”God, please help me.”

So on a sunny Saturday, depressing and feeling sorry for myself, a miracle happened!

My son said there is a women with dog without a leash outside our house, throwing the dog’s toy against our house, near our dogs. In my pity full state, I jumped up, as we feel very strong about dogs must be on a leash in public.

The most fast way to get out of my house is to open the garage door. And while I very rudely and aggressively ask this women if she know it is a law to have your dog on a leash, in run the dog, in our garage and then into our house.

Although it is clean, there are these grief piles everywhere in our garage, those boxes and heaps of clutter, that is too painful to face.

My son, about to start baking a cake, jumped on the counter. Ever since he had been bitten by a dog, he is cautious of dogs and that is why we are so strict about dogs being on a leash or controlled inside of they’re owner’s property.

This lady very impressively acted quickly, in a strange house and got her dog on a leash, she did have with her.

So there we stood, next to my husband’s heritage antique Beetle in a cluttered garage and I try to explain our situation. I went from aggressive to embarrassed and apologetic. To make an excuse that my Mom died two years ago, and my husband four years ago… saying it aloud, hit reality close to home for me. I realized how ridiculous it sound, that I still have not come to terms to face all these boxes with my mostly my husband’s earthly possessions.

As all this lady wanted, was to walk her dog and get exercise for them both. We shared little bits of our lives, both experiences death in our family. She is newly married, just one month and my whole attitude change immediately. I wished her well and blessed her marriage sincerley, as I am honestly very passionate about marriages. Even as a widow, I don’t wish anyone the hurts I experienced in my marriage, nor to ever be a widow. I truly wish everyone a happy marriage and family life.

She said something, I must wash the Beattle with lamp oil to prevent rust.

They just moved in nearby us and she offered help to walk our dogs, which I immediately accepted. She gave me her nr and as she left, I went back to my favorite spot on the couch, looking out on the beautiful view in front of our house and something broke in me and I cried.

Remembering my husband who also used to wash the car with lamp oil in, to prevent rust. Afterwards I thought, let me check out if this women told the truth. Luckily I knew someone connected to her work place.

She is for real and this morning, we walked together with her dog.

NOW, this HAPPENING and EVENT, ticked of 4 things on my vision board.

I can only give God all the credit for this blessing, this accidental devine encounter to have meet this gem of a women!! She is a real country girl and feels like family.

She is a physiotherapist in Jeffreysbay, a very good one. Well even that is a miracle we needed and I can’t wait to take my daughter and son to her.

As she left me after amazing walk at my home, she looked at our view and said this is the perfect spot for sundowners.

And I said, then we must use it. I don’t even know what and how to do sundowners, but I have a friend who know how and she knows the road to my home.

So I am excited anew again about our future and yet another, much needed angel women, that God sent over my way.

Loving my life and the incredible story of our life, one devine and Holy moment at a time.

19 May 2022

Well, so much have happened this past year.

My daughter is single again and we miss that young man’s incredible culinary skills. That kid could braai a steak to perfection, so that a vegan might would convert to banting.

We lost the view in front of our house, but it seems like we are getting a good new neighbor.

Over this past year, I had this incredible fear, post lock down fear and I took a risk.

However, God said:”The risk you take, will be worth it.”

I worked extremely hard, and missed out on glorious summer and got serious unfit, never played much or walked with our dogs yet.

We are so close to having the farm guesthouse pet friendly enclosed, and have Hilux with railings especially to transport the dogs there. It feels like we never arrive at a final destination of normal life. It is also a painfully slow progress to let go of those grief piles….

I am running out of excuses to stay busy, to run away and face reality to let go.

As I am finalizing this blog entry, winter are upon us, with much needed and very blessed rains. A pot of soup simmering on the stove, and I can just pray, we make it through this 5th winter without my husband, better than the previous ones.

That we can keep up the privileged lifestyle I tried to achieve for my children. Not always sure if it is worth it, especially in the light of so many people working hard for us to have this privileged life and then again, so many others struggling after lockdown.

I have been in denial far too long, and received grace from God in my grief, beyond and after overtime. I need to still stay strong and focus, but somewhere I pray I get time to finally break and just get to zero balance, and put the past behind me and stretch myself out to what is in front of me.

Love,

Daisy