Fear, Failures and some more.
24 April 2020
The past can’t be undone.
It is easy to say Forgive & Forget...
However, I prefer REMEMBER & Recover.
I loved God first, and instinctively I submitted to my husband.
30 April 2020 it will be 2 years and 8 months after his death, and I still wear his wedding ring.
I submit to my husband still in death, as my spirit lead me. All my life I have been stream up and different.
Money, possesions, status, image, brands, gifts or good deeds don’t and will never impress me.
A sincere heart impress me, a smile, TIME, attitude, friendliness.
I don’t take delight at all in the unfortunate position I now am, where my decisions affect so many hardworking people.
In making these decisions, I tend to find favor on the people who was kind to me, my husband, my children, my in-laws and my family.
There is a HUGE amount of fear to show extended grace on people, who haven’t had grace towards me.....
Especially in the current global situation.
YET, I can only testify of God’s goodness always. Even in the bad times.
Friendliness cost NOTHING, but the lack of it, in the long run, might be very expensive....
4 July 2022
In hindsight, the attitude to Remember & Recover wasn’t the best way to go.
I am hurting so bad about the past still.
It is hard to face these people and know I am for sure not welcome or loved.
It feels like I am forever been punished for falling in love and marrying my husband…. Even after praying and hearing clear from God he is the one for me.
I have not been welcome here, yet I stay loyal to my Mother-in-law, as best I can, midst of extremely challenging circumstances.
To forgive is a daily action, and to forgive myself is the hardest.
Because I am so hard on myself always. Forever striving to reach a point of being good enough and accepted.
Preferably accepted unconditionally.
24 April 2019
I kind of figured this! Keep on trying! Three times, been so close to move up to next level.
It is not about the money anymore!
I am at the level which you can achieve alone for 12 years now. I need to breakthrough so many obstacles to go Next Level as leader of a team.
Huge responsibility I don’t take lightly.
My team matters to me.
It is not about me...
People need this opportunity.
To excell in Herbalife, you must die your own pride! You must conquer all your weaknesses and become a true servent of God and people.
Humbleness
Honesty
Integrity
Respect
Trustworthiness
Reliability
Consistency
Work ethics
Honor
Legacy
I am tired, but I am not giving up ever!
Herbalife until Afterlife.
That saying shocked me at first.
But God really bless these products and company.
God bless everything for His children.
4 July 2022
I lost my whole team the year before lockdown. The loss of income really hit hard, the disappointment of letting so many people down is just disheartening to start building up anew now again.
I am gearing up to try one more time again with Herbalife Nutrition.
Fear of Failure is even worse now!
I am terrified to master the virtual online world. My stomach turn upside down with fear, but this is my purpose and passion.
The why has changed radically. If I do this now again, it is not for my husband, my children or myself, but as for God!
People need Herbalife Nutrition Opportunity more than they know.
24 April 2016
Herbalife is simply the best with this!
I am so proud of our team all working together and helping each other in different lines. I many times see more "Christ-like qualities" through my Herbalife business, than in other area's of life.
Unreal emotion!! I am honored and humbled to experience it.
24 April 2016
Very first, official annual leave since starting with Tsitsimilk 18 months ago! 2 weeks at least, not 3 weeks as my husband promised!!! But saving that week for after the calving season.
So thankful that we home school to take holiday now. Going home tommorrow to Geelhoutboom for a full week of relaxing....after cleaning house.
So excited, previous 2 weeks holiday was super stressed after saying goodbye to 22 years of comfort and nervous to start new beginning. We had to raise the bar much higher. Hopefully not going to wait another 18 months before taking holiday again. It's been HECTIC!!!
4 July 2022
That was the last holiday….
If the saying is, hell has no fury like a women once scorned, well, then I don’t know what a saying will be for my situation.
I felt cheated by life.
This wasn’t my reality!!!!!
We’ve been through so much already.
There is nothing to fix the past, there is no re-start button, no do-over.
The unfairness beats me up inside and it is a constant, daily battle to focus on forgive and forget.
Then I listen to other people’s stories, and realise we honestly have so much to be thankful for.
I grant everyone just happiness.
24 April 2009
Hoop om almal plaaslik môre in lewende lywe te sien by die KAREEBOUTERS PRETDRAF!!! Ons gesin sien vreeslik uit na die eerste van vele "events" in ons kinders se lewe. Sal maar sien of Kobus ook so goed kan hardloop met Herbalife, as wat hy Touchies speel.
4 Julie 2022
Hy het los hande gewen!!!
Onvergeetlike oomblik. Veral oor ons later tuisskolers geword het.
4 July 2022
Thank you to so many positive feedback and also honest advise on how to improve.
I am working on it.
At the moment my heart is breaking from remembering the past. And from realizing the damage I did and could have done.
Mostly stand in God’s way…. Or so it tends to feel like for me.
I am confused, and the age old question I used to ask my husband:”How do you know what is right or wrong?”
You can read the Bible and pray, but it is impossible to be perfect everyday like Jesus.
You get tired, emotional, hormonal, stressed and sometimes, the devil play his part to stir the pot.
My Herbalife Sponsor has a saying:”You can never say the right thing to the wrong person, nor the wrong thing to the right person.”
So as for me, I kind of relax and don’t beat myself up about how people interpret me. We need to grow thick skins, offense is never given, but often taken.
Love,
Daisy
PS:
As always, excuse the mistakes. I have OCD, but I am not a perfectionist..
Still a work in progress.
Please contact me with any advice on how to improve. :) )
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