My Own Blog! Finally :)
4 April 2019I have this BIG story to share, but it is too long.
However, God is just not letting me off the hook about it. I am so nervous, as I don’t want to offend or upset people. Or put my children and me in a position to be even more rejected.
My blog is set up, but since I have OCD, I’m waiting for perfection to start with it. As we near "perfection" in my humble minimalist way, there however now is this stronghold, block or freeze over me.
Then last night, I attended by the most surreal circumstances ever, a cell group called Connect. Same name as my Christian Business Women Connect. I can already see God's amazing grace in connecting people. I don't feel equipped and worthy enough to be sharing this Divine Appointment we had.
It was TOUGH to show up Saturday for that Divine Appointment and last night for 1st meeting of the new cell group chosen by God for our family.
I don't trust easy. (Sorry to our exceptional new cell group leaders, in all honesty, we are going to need to build a relationship first, but what a powerful story we can one day testify for God.)
These people are willing to publicly share the testimony of how we meet, but I have been rejected so many times for two things, my Faith and Herbalife. And I am trying to respect my children's privacy, as this situation is intriguingly complicated.
Yet, absolutely Godly aligned!
I am very open-minded about different religions, but one thing I can say for sure:
GOD IS REAL!
There is only one true God and if He wants you, He will come after you with everything in His Power. He will never let you out of His Hands! He’s Son Jesus died on the cross so that everyone can be saved! Coming from our church background, my children are uncertain about what is going on, as we are CONNECTED to more than one church.
JBBC has been very kind to us always and through difficult times, especially after my husband’s death. Baptist Church and family are very special, near and dear to our hearts. CRC members are genuinely extraordinary people.
Deo Doxa already had a special place in our hearts thanks to Herbalife, and now thanks to Herbalife again.
New Horizon Vinyard…. to be pulled there by the Holy Spirit through a storm, is mighty special, and I have built great relationships there. I also feel safe and protected there.
I have NO idea what God is up to? I walk cautiously forward in prayer. I REALLY don't feel worthy at all for this special divine moments from God.
Last night at that very first cell group meeting, not the first time, I questioned if I must still do Herbalife. Honestly? If not for Herbalife, wouldn’t be there. But to show up and get there, on the way, we had bad experiences…
Something terrible and sad for me happened in my immediate Herbalife circle. I dropped my team even worse this past month because I couldn't stand firm to say NO and was disappointed, with something I would have loved to do at a different time. But as we moved into our beautiful town house, chosen by God, I knew I was going to give in and break, and want to cry and grief my husband. I needed it desperately.
I joined Herbalife for this: NO OBLIGATION!I also have a very tragic story about how I started Herbalife, and over the years, it has not been easy, and it is hard to carry on without my husband, who was my WHY. When I feel obligated and forced, I am like a stubborn mule; I refuse to move!
So last night, my prayer request was, must I go on with Herbalife, or not?
More than one person said to me at the end of last year, God had something else in mind for me other than Herbalife. However, I had so many inquiries TODAY for Herbalife, even though I lost momentum this past month. This company just doesn't let you go because when you need it the most, it is there for you, DEVINELY! In the end, it is about helping and uplifting those who need it.
I am waiting on a clear answer from God.
6 April 2022Today, FINALLY, for the very first time, I am typing on my laptop on my blog.
It is a dream come true!
I don’t even know how to explain these Devine Appointments, as I just came from Life Group, the new name of the DEO DOXA Connect cell group this year. ONLY the 2nd one I attended this year, and trust me, the first one was WOW!!! There is NO WAY I can make up these incidents that happen to me.
As I sit there, my heart was trembling because of a big mess I made this past weekend. Thank God for my cell group family showing up Sunday to build me up (which I honestly feel like I don’t deserve) and then again Monday night to help me with a vehicle situation.
My Godly chosen church, New Horizen Vinyard Church, our pastor’s wife also divinely made a lunch appointment with me and just built me up today. And again, I don’t even feel worthy of so much love.
I am about to step into a NEW SEASON, and there is a lot of resistance. That constant battle is going on against evil spirits. Eph 6:12.
BUT GOD!! He is already in this situation, ahead of me, ahead of us all. PERFECT LOVE Conquers all Fear! Unconditional love….. which I slipped up big time lately.
Caught up in my grief, our grief, me and my children’s, we hurt people. I don’t even know if SORRY will be enough if I am so lucky to get an opportunity to apologize. However, as always, I look up to God expectantly for miracles and live by Romans 8:28.
I pray that my blog, inspired by God’s divine moments, will be an instrument in His Hands. In the Hands of the true God, creator of the Universe and all in it, to be an instrument in His Hands, for good and not for evil.
Love,
Daisy
