HOLY Moment
HOLY MOMENTS - Lenya Heitzig
10 April 2019I once asked permission to share this amazing story, and can’t help to share it again. My story is my story always.
Waking up just after 4 this morning, jumping out of bed, my head full of stories to share.
However, OCD to put duty before pleasure of writing. 2nd day of normal routine again.
Forever the wife of a dairyfarm manager! Old habits become instinctively second nature.
Make my bed, brush my teeth, get dress for exercise and have water with Herbal Aloe.
Bible study and prayer first.
Most important thing to start your day with.
As we packed up and moved from the farm, I singled out two books to sit closeby in our new sitting room. What a blessing they are now.
I am thankful for a beautiful view of a tree and a dairy farm still from our sitting room windows, in the blessed house in town. We still have the privilege to sometimes go back and enjoy the view I become to love the previous 16 years. A jail with open doors. That is how they describe dairy farming.
I did not marry for love alone. I prayed over and over, if God is sure this is the right husband for me. As we we’re extreme opposites.
We didn’t live together before our wedding, and we already started arguing on our honeymoon, being together so much all of a sudden. After the honeymoon, I was shocked to realize that my husband actually wake up 2:10 for a fact, to go work extremely hard, physical job. He told me so, and seeing him only over weekends, it was hard to grasp the full concept of his work hours and routine.
Cinderella syndrome hit me hard!
So here I was, spoiled oldest princess of my parents, and I knew nothing of farm life, let alone to be the wife of a workaholic, poor dairy farm manager. Youngest son of a widow. On a very far isolated farm, surrounded by very conservative people. I was thrown in to the deep end. My rights and freedom taken away from me, and the shock of the reality felt similar of someone being tortured.
My mother tried to warn me and talk me out of it. And even though I was in love.....God only know why on earth he matched me and my husband.
Forever!
As without knowing it, I got the best. There is no comparison ever!! No one will ever even be able to compare.
My husband lived super fast. He’s energy physically exhausted me, who we’re radical the opposite of him. Truly like an undercover spy / superhero. Never really revealing how extraordinary and impressive good he was. Many things I only heard after his death.
He however, for sure wasn’t perfect and often said: “We hurt the people closest to us.”
Many people know our story, I always have been an open book.
Partly in fear of God.
My mind is figuring, if I reveal all now on earth, I save myself some embarrassment when the book of our lives are open one day in heaven for accountability.
Also, partly in search of help. Yet, not many people cared to help. Life is just to busy.
And I think, there is also a part of me that records everything, in an attempt to proof my “innocence”. Only realizing later, that this actually made me appear more in the wrong.
So after years of being isolated and really broken down, in an environment shocking different than what I was raised in.
God pulled us out of there and little by little, I healed at this oasis, temporary blessing at Eersterivier house.
One woman, one moment in time, change my direction and on a beautiful January morning, I cautiously find myself midst of group of women at Wild Fig restaurant Jeffreysbay.
(Regarding this woman. My husband asked me do I trust her, a complete stranger? I said to him, I trust God.)
The venue itself has special significance for our family. The meeting and message already refreshed my then, very broken down soul. Each women received a gift and card which was very carefully prayed about.
My gift, this precious and beautiful book, HOLY MOMENTS by Lenya Heitzig, actually are becoming even more Spot On Holy Spirit aligned, as I read it now a second time.
But the card!
I will never forget, leaving that meeting, sitting under a wild fig tree outside, still trembling, partly from the anxiety to get courage to leave my place of isolation (and comfort) and show up to a group of strange women; and partly from the holy encounter we just had.
I burst out in tears when I read the card! How could a complete stranger know all this about me?
ALWAYS REMEMBER THE WHY! My husband was my biggest WHY! May God richly bless the works of your hands. A prayer I first heard in my Herbalife sponsor’s house. Your WHY is something I also learned about at Herbalife trainings.
9 Months before my husband’s death!
I firmly believe God started a journey to prepare me already im the year before my husband’s death.
CONNECT, and specifically Christian Business Women Connect was born because of obedience to God.
These ladies had kept me so strong after my husband’s death and I have for sure experienced a lot of Devine and Holy Moments, just through being apart of them.
Now God has sent another CONNECT and I am waiting to hear when the Holy Spirit want me to share.
If you are still reading till here.
Miracles do still happen!
It might not be supernatural instant miracles like in the Bible what Jesus did.
But prayers still are answered. Miracles take time sometimes.
Prayers can be answered immediately too!
So pray! Ask God!
Just let GO of your baggage and give it over to God. He is faithful and wants to help you.
Love,
