End of Winter 2022.

14 September 2020

The greatest gift my Dad gave our children, is the way he loved our Mom!

I am missing my Mom tremendously today!

Reality of her being gone, hitting me hard today.

You never know what you had, before it is gone.

So true with the losses I experienced, of my Mom and my husband.

I wish I can talk to my Mom and tell her I only understand now, how much I hurt her, not receiving more from her. Why she said I am ungrateful.

It’s only that I now experience more and less the same with my children, that I understand where she came from.

Children can hurt parents unknowingly.

Children don’t do what parents tell them, but follow they’re example. So unconsciously, I followed my Mom’s example.

My Mom set such an incredible high standard to follow. I don’t know if I will ever follow in her footsteps, and I also don’t know how she would have handled being a widow in my circumstances.

However, her work ethic was impeccable.

She work hard to support my Dad’s dreams, and to give our children the best and out of this beautiful love story, they blessed so many people.

I am so tremendously proud of my parents and family. Through all the ups and downs, especially past 3 to 4 years, we are still standing strong.

Dankie Pappa en Mamma!

Al is en was alles nie perfek nie! Julle is die beste ouers wat God vir ons op aarde en in die hemel gegee het.

24 September 2022

HERITAGE DAY / BRAAI DAG

Where do I start, so much has happened!

Since 30 August 2022 I’ve been very emotional, with lots of situations triggering old memories. I don’t know, maybe it’s hormonal, stress or over exhaustion.

Not only was I teary, but also consumed anew with old bitterness and hate, that I thought I already dealt with.

When I pre- type my blog in my mind, I have the most amazing things to share, and now as I finally get time to type, I find it hard to share logically.

By Devine Intervention again, I met a young women on the beach who also like walking; and she invited me to they’re evening church service, where the message was very clear.

God’s commandments is to rest the 7th day.

REST

26 March 2023

I couldn’t finish what I started 24 September 2022….

The night before, I nearly died.

After a very challenging year, I had a lovely dinner with a very good friend, cold pancakes in candle light, thanks to loadshedding and thank God for her as witness, I made my peace and made a decision to forgive everyone AGAIN.

My words to her was, I believe there is a reason why my son has never been to school, and at that point his homeschooling tutor gave up on him and we we’re beyond unschooling, however, I was determined and had a plan of action in mind.

Three hours later, in a wink of an eye, our lives radically changed.

If ever I was ready to die, that would have been perfect. However, survival instincts comes instinctively.

I believe that calling out:”In the name of Jesus I command you to leave Satan!” saved my life.

The shock and trauma only hit me later, and I tried to carry one, but was forced to rest on that rainy, public holiday and by the grace of God, so pre-destined miraculously, my hand picked the perfect book for comfort then.

Thanks to meeting that women on the beach and after praying, and hearing God to go with her to church. One moment in time, at the right time and right place, midst of a spiritual war going on, I was still supernaturally blessed by God.

I needed to hear that same message from another church and pastor, to confirm what my pastor’s wife keep on telling me.

REST!

Rest in God. Become silent to hear Him.

A lot has happened since then.

I am still trying to wrap my mind around everything, but at this point am just surrendering to God completely at His mercy.

God forced me to rest, retreat and isolate. He is just such an amazing loving God.

I am ashamed at how I acted. I am ashamed about many things and tremendously thankful to God for surrounding me with good people, strong grounded in faith. Uplifting me.

I am broken and it is beautiful.

If I can copy the title of Kelly Clarkson’s song.

The 6th winter without my husband is soon approaching.

Another Spring, Summer and part of Autumn are almost over again.

I was thinking this 6th year without my husband will be my party year. However, 5 years of hard work alone, without holidays, has been taking it’s toll. Maybe this is meant to be my sabbatical year, my rest year. As I am battling to get going again. Eager to move, but finding myself at God’s mercy to stay put and rest.

I need to keep walking in faith and not by sight. Hearing my own go to phrase, in church this morning, everything will work out for the best. (Rom. 8:28) Choosing to believe, that what the devil tried to send to destroy me, will turn out, yet again, to be the best thing that could happen to me.

Stubborn as I am, God just allowed things to happen and moved me, forced me to accept help. It feels uncertain to not be in control alone anymore, confusing, yet a great relief too at the same time.

My desperate prayer, that when I finally get through this wasteland and desert, faced my giants, that I won’t forget the lessons learned and Who hold me in His Hands the whole time.

This I also heard in church again this morning, God will never let you go out of His Hands.

If you search for Him, you will find Him. He wants to help you, He is waiting for you to call out to Him and ask His help.

Complete surrender to God.

Obedience to the Holy Spirit who God send as our comforter too.

The true Holy Spirit…..but that is a story for another blog.

May the memories, happenings and thoughts of my blog, encourage you who read here now.

Whatever is going on in your life, choose to be thankful. Keep the faith. Keep a positive attitude always.

Make time to rest. Connect with your local church and Bible study groups and fellow believers.

Choose Hope. Choose God!

Love,

Daisy

PS:

As always, excuse the mistakes. I have OCD, but I am not a perfectionist.

Still a work in progress. (Always & Forever)

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DISCLAIMER:

These are my thoughts based on the story and testimonies of my life story, to whom I give God all the glory for. I respect people of all walks of life and all religions. However, I choose to believe and stay grounded in God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit.