Love / Hate / Marriage / Consequences

10 Novemver 2022

This is NOT the blog I had in mind to publish.

23 September 2022, just when I felt, midst of great challenges, that I am OK and in happy space, anew forgive and forget everyone, in a wink of the eye, my life changed.

Looking back, maybe the worst things in my life, sometimes alter the course of my direction for the better.

However, the effects are lingering, the scars are permanent, the trauma has ripple effects that I believe, can only be rescued, fixed and saved by the blood of Jesus.

I had plans to started whole fresh new blog, and share our latest car dramas. We are blessed, however, the memories of my when my husband still lived, are hitting me hard now again. I though I was OK, but as the reality dawn upon me that I am alone, to see complete families hurt. To do things alone, that we usually did as family together, hurts and it’s not easy to not get bitter. Yet, I am in control of my mind and I trained myself to speak blessings over everyone.

I am looking forward to blog about the supernatural, divine, holy moments I experience today.

God willing. Nothing is ever guaranteed.

11 October 2019

MEMORIES 11 October 2019 COPIED:

This is not easy.

Saturday morning, at Taste of Israel hosted at GLA school, I was confronted with my past. Surrounded with church people, witness to our history.

After already very emotional day, memories flooding and I was reminded of so many things, as well as prompted again by God to share the story.

I confided in a spiritual mentor and said, this is too hard. She was very graceful with me and said take my time. As we both know by now, obedience through difficulty, brings blessings not only to the one obedient, but too others too.

First of all, I am not perfect.

I am the oldest of 5 and when my husband met my, I might have been perceived as a spoiled brat, snob, selfish, ignorant, lazy, scattered.

For some reason, my husband loved me unconditionally.

But I didn’t belong, I made things difficult for him and my children, because I was different.

And even though we we’re happy, passionately in love, we experienced a lot of judgment and pressure.

Pressure about how our house look, how we look, how we raise our children.

It is not easy to be a man in today’s society, especially not a good man.

I never understood, that my husband’s silence, not standing up for our values, was a sign of strength and to protect us.

So I was young, came from different home and society and I was clueless. I searched for help everywhere, mostly churches. Very few good souls made an effort to reach out and help.

I am sharing a video, and even though things weren’t as bad, my husband never hurt me or our children, but emotionally we hurt each other and our children.

My husband used to say, we hurt the people closest to us.

When he died, I blamed myself for cursing him when we argued so many times.

But I worked through it, and in the end, my husband believed that no curse of an unrighteousness person, will come over a righteous person.

And he was so very righteous. Incredible strong soul and faith. Even though in my 21 years together with him, there wasn’t any righteous men, speaking into his life, trying to do right by my husband, and ultimately to me and our children.

Losing his earthly father at the age of 3 years and 10 months. He turned out an amazing father to his children and tried to be the best possible husband, provider and protector.

So I don’t know why and what God want me to share exactly.

BUT, every since my husband died, God nudged me to share. 6 days ago, reminded me again to share.

Last night the power went off and this morning, I realize, with no electricity I have time to share the story.

And I try to find excuses! Bargaining with God.

Silently praying:

“God, if you really want me to share this story.

Do something extraordinary, give me a sign.”

And I received this video clip.

For us, what saved our family, was when we started to homeschool.

Last 6 years of my husband’s life, we homeschooled and EVERYTHING changed.

I prayed about that decision, distinctly heard the message to homeschool, because the time is short.

The last year of my husband’s life, as my daughter had to go to high school, 4 confirmations, of which one took my breath away.

BECAUSE, the time is short.

I was very keen to send my daughter back to school. It was more hard to home school. But we obeyed God.

9 months later, our lives was changed forever after my husband’s death. If our daughter went to school, she would have missed out on her Dad bragging with his 14 year old daughter taking an A.I. course and worked side by side with him in the cow pits at the dairy.

Anyway, who ever needs to hear this.

Appreciate your husband who work hard.

Appreciate your husband tired and still making time to help other people.

The best advice I got, was:”Lord, change me.”

Be thankful for every season.

Husbands, please stand up publicly for your wife against your family and her family.

Next to home school, that was the other thing that made a difference.

This one precious act carry me now. In the end, literally in the last 3 months, my husband one day gave me a hug in the kitchen, all I wanted was hugs, time and appreciation.

He asked me if I love him, and recalling the hell we’ve been through, I said I don’t know.

He laughed, hold me tight and kissed me, till where I had to confess I do love him.

The greatest gift parents can give there children, is to see them love each other.

So, today, I am releasing everyone who was witness to our difficult past, as well as I am releasing everyone for turning they’re backs on us after I’ve been widowed.

God is our provider and protector.

We are strong. Our story is our story.

It’s an honor to have been put through trials and tribulations, to serve God.

Another thing, and these are my opinions and I am not making any claims.

But if we didn’t use Herbalife.... I would have lost the plot many times!! Apart from the good nutrition in our bodies, the uplifting community to inspire us that there can be something better.

Sometimes it was one of the hardest things, as so many people close to us rejected us because of Herbalife, but to us, it has been one of the greatest blessings.

Please, don’t take 13 years of 16 years marriage, to change your circumstances.

Don’t stay 22 years in a dead end job.

Whatever your circumstances, your troubles and your burdens, give it to God and trust Him for a way out.

There is so much more, but this is really not easy for me to share.

Already as I started typing, the blessings started pouring in.

Obedience to God = Showers of blessings.

Watch till the end. Apologies for swear words. SEEK HELP, before the damage is irreplaceable.

11 December 2022

This is absolutely not easy at all.

I had a different blog in mind, and on the life of me, I can not remember what! BUT, I just know I have to publish a blog and I am still having technical issues. So this was on top of my draft blogs.

TRUST ME, there is so much more behind the story.

I actually feel like I want to hate God for giving me these instructions sometimes to do things, and I sometimes can’t believe myself obeying, but you know, it is God after all! I don’t need to know why or how, I just need to obey.

This is so hard!

3 December a very good man died. Suddenly! Someone who’s permission I had to write a blog about how our paths cross on earth.

A giant of a man, who shared his childhood testimonial, and who I turned to during the past two months about what happened to me during September and October. He and his wife have been witnesses to our story over the past 4 years almost. They have also been one of the few good people, who was kind to us and supported us in business, to help me, without hurting my pride.

His death is hitting me hard, yesterday was his memorial service and I am in shock and denial all over. My heart breaking for his wife, who’s story is much harder than mine was. I can’t stop thinking of her and their family.

I just got back on my feet of what happened in September / October and made my comeback to Herbalife trainings.

This was suppose to be my victory moment, my glory moment.

I am finding it very hard to focus and show up for commitments, yet, inspired by this giant of a man’s life, who set an example of standing strong and showing up, regardless.

So no, this is not the blog I had in mind, but this is what God had in mind, and somehow, it is actually perfect.

I am taking a huge risk to publish it. I have been given friendly advice to tone my testifying for God back a bit, it might put people of in doing business with me, worse, it might put them of from turning to God.

BUT GOD!

I hear His Voice clearly, and this blog is getting published. Perfect or not.

For a time such as this…..If I perish, than I perish.

Yesterday, was a dream come true moment for me, and I am thankful for so many grace. EVEN THAT, was linked to this giant of a man, supernaturally, somehow, I sometimes am at the right place, the right time.

I honestly have not ever feel worthy or equip enough to testify all these stories and testimonials for God.

I just want to pour out of me sometimes, and I am excited for the future that God has for the story of my life, intertwined all of a sudden with so many more connections.

In memory of a great man. Who just like my husband, will never be forgotten!

Pieter once said, we paid a sacrifice through losing my husband, now I truly pray, that the sacrifice of both these two very good men, husbands and fathers, will be beautiful and sweet offerings to God. For if my husband didn’t die, we would have never met Pieter. I wish things could have been different and they could have met in person in real life.

Tomorrow is never promised. Live everyday as if it can be your last.

Are you ready for heaven, in case it is your last day?

Give your heart and life to God. Don’t postpone, do it now.

Love,

Daisy

PS:

As always, excuse the mistakes. I have OCD, but I am not a perfectionist..

Still a work in progress. (Always & Forever)

Please contact me with any advice on how to improve. :) )

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DISCLAIMER:

These are my thoughts based on the story and testimonies of my life story, to whom I give God all the glory for. I respect people of all walks of life and all religions. However, I choose to believe and stay grounded in God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit.