Home school.
1 September 2013
Oh I needed this encouragement today!
I was just thinking this morning, everything I prayed about and are obedient to God, are so tough and difficult.
14 years ago I prayed and prayed about Herbalife, 5 years in it, I prayed again:"God are you sure I must do Herbalife, if it is not, I will back out immediately!" I mean, it would be so much easier to do nothing and stay in my little comfort zone.
OH and I prayed and prayed about my husband, 5 years in my marriage I was wondering, am I sure I heard God right - because marriage are really hard work. Little bit more than four years ago, I just made peace with my circumstances, to live on a lovely, but very far, distant and isolated farm and become "housewife", even worse for me - a "farm wife"! I was actually looking forward to cooking and baking, anything is possible.
Then a part time job opportunity came up and I prayed and prayed. I really didn't need the money then, I was scared to do something new, it wasn't quite what I was trained to do - but God said yes.
I thought I will give it 3 months, I will never make it! My head ached and hurt from stress to learn something new and take on more responsibilities - it was the experience of a lifetime and I was very sad when that season in my life finished.
God knew what was best for me!
2 years ago I was exhausted, stressed and burnt out just after 2 years of public school for my oldest daughter and my 2nd child starting to go to pre-school.
Again, God nudged me into a direction and when we had to make the decision to home school, I prayed and I prayed.
I didn't even feel spiritual alive, but for sure, God said yes (because now I am doubting again, but He did say yes).
The principal of our first curriculum we did last year, said a true thing. The first year of home school is difficult, you just want to put your kids back in school, the 2nd year it gets better, but by the 3 year you feel like:"How on earth did I ever put my kids in school?" Life is like a see-saw, up and down.
Everybody's circumstances are different, everybody's story are different.
One thing is for sure, if God isn't in your life, marriage, family, house, work, school, then it is not going to work out for the good. Just stick it out.
Enjoy every moment of your children, because life goes by very fast and yes, protect they're innocence. For us, home schooling are the best thing we could have done for our souls!
Yes, we believe in education, learning, but for us, it is to focus on that child's passion, to prepare them for a calling with which they can earn income to live on earth, but be a happy and full filled human being.
The greatest gift so far was to see my husband become a full human being and bonding with our children while they are still small and hearing them all laugh together.
I cried a lot when I realize this is it, we must "home school", I trembled when I went to town and saw the kids with they're school uniforms, I felt so sorry for my daughter missing out on team sport and playmates, it was VERY TOUGH on us all the first year, this year a bit too, but we can not wait for our 3rd year to home school and I am not so sure if we will put them back in school, when our youngest must start grade 1 and oldest grade 6.
For sure I will pray about this then, again :)
31 Augustus 2013
Sweet Kendra writes:
It's the first day of public school in our area and amid all the comments of moms loving the fact that their children are gone for 8 hours a day - I'm struggling through another tough day of homeschooling...even though it's tempting to just send them off, I know I could never recapture the innocence that my children have from being away from that environment...yet, some days it's just SO HARD. Tell me I'm not the only one?
From Heidi:
I'm sure the moms here will have lots of encouragement for you, Kendra <3 so I'll be brief. (Or, I'll try to be, haha!)
Homeschooling is a calling. For us, it was something we never planned to do, nor did we want to. And honestly? I still have days like that. There are days when I think I can't do one.more.thing. You see, nothing that's worth doing is ever easy—and this homeschooling, this commitment of time and energy that you've taken in—is worth it.
Be encouraged and know that you will see fruit. The harvest will come. If you feel overwhelmed, take a break. Do something different. (Maybe you need a pajama day!) Keep being real. Because other moms who have been there and done that will come alongside you when you're honest enough to say it's hard.
You can do it. :) In fact, Philippians 4:13 says you can do ALL things through Christ who gives you strength. Keep asking Him for the strength you need.
xoxo
heidi
5 February 2023
Well, what can I say….
In 3 days my first born will turn 20.
Yesterday as we drove the dirt road to our previous home, I shared with my son how happy I was right after she was born.
It was so lonely on the farm, and my circumstances after marriage to a widow’s youngest son, was like nothing I could have ever been prepared enough, for sure not by school or church.
I talked to my baby girl in her car seat, tell her about believing in dreams and fairies, seeing the beauty of nature outside. There is this view with 3 little blue dams, midst of the green fields, like steps for a giant, walking into the infinity pool of sea view, behind the three dams. I imagined the little fairies playing there. It was such a happy time and happy memory. I sang gospel songs for her in the car and told her, I cannot wait for her to be grown up and be her best friend.
By the time my daughter turned one, something happened, and with trauma upon trauma, I broke bad.
Post natal depression or giving in under pressures in isolation. This is my firm believe though, God is in control and He will all bad things work out for the best.
By the time my daughter was two, I searched for help at churches and women’s Bible study groups. I got disappointed and hurt.
I went to the local docter and explained my situation, looking for medication, she chuckled it off in her unique manner and told me, there is nothing wrong with me, go join the W.A.A.
It was the best thing I could do! What attracted me there was they’re believe in dreams and they’re faith in God.
It felt like the same feeling I get from being part of Herbalife, positive upliftment!
Somewhere, I got influenced to not celebrate Christmas (whole other topice there), and to not let my children watch cartoons, anything with fairies, I got rid of idols, or images of angels in my house.
I was a very strict Mom, also very judgmental Christian women. Until where one day, while hosting a homeschooling outing on our farm, a very special homeschooling mother of 8, release me from all this control and trying to save me and my children myself.
She throw up her arms in a strong, muscle empowered move and said:”Surely, my God is stronger than everything!”
The relieve of that realization to just LET GO & LET GOD!
To have homeschooled was the greatest privilege and blessing. It wasn’t easy and I don’t know if we we’re successful.
I got so many compliments about my children, that people can’t believe they we’re homeschooled, much because they were very social. Like in, and I am very humbly saying this, in my opinion, some of the most popular homeschooling children socially wise.
However, they’re father died at a critical point in they’re homeschooling and we had a very difficult journey since then.
There is no point into throwing accusations and blame around, and within the last two terms, our lives has been turned upside down and my family and in-laws, just bypassed me and my daughter is in college and my son in school, and I find myself back facing my past.
I am not even at liberty to share everything, respecting other people’s privacy.
BUT GOD!!!
Last year I was obedient to God with 5 situations that was very difficult, challenging and altered the whole course of my well structured, safe, comfortable life, as I once knew it. If I must choose over again, I will choose to obey God again. Even if I loose everything, I choose to trust God!
At the current moment, my life feel messy and out of control, and it is beautiful to just LET GO and LET GOD!
I can’t help to fall in love with God even more, for choosing me for the specific story of my life. He knew before I was formed in my mother’s womb, even before my mother and father we’re form. God is in control always.
I am proud of my children, regardless! I have peace of mind that I was obedient to God as best I can, under my unique circumstances and I have always given all the glory to God for my children. I surrender to God and submit them unto God and keep praying for them.
God’s will be done on earth as in Heaven. Always!
What about you reading here now? Do you still hear God’s Voice? Do you obey Him? Even if it is something very uncomfortable He ask of you.
Recently I was reminded of a Bible story, of Joseph who had to obey God within a very uncomfortable situation with Mary being pregnant.
Imagine if he didn’t obey, what would have happened to Mary.
What would have happened to Jesus?
The Bible is full of stories, real life testimonies and results of people who obeyed the Voice of God, persisting through difficulty, and there by impacting us NOW!
This I do know for sure, whether you obey or not, God’s will be done.
He is a loving and merciful God and always has the best in mind for us all.
Love,
Daisy
PS:
As always, excuse the mistakes. I have OCD, but I am not a perfectionist.
Still a work in progress. (Always & Forever)
Please contact me with any advice on how to improve. :) )
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DISCLAIMER:
These are my thoughts based on the story and testimonies of my life story, to whom I give God all the glory for. I respect people of all walks of life and all religions. However, I choose to believe and stay grounded in God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit.
